January, how could you?

Photo: Redd Angelo

Hello blog readers.

I don’t really have a reason for writing this post other than I am home alone all night and I want something to focus on. I have vegan fish fingers in the oven and mint tea at my desk and I’ve already painted my nails and listened to Beyonce and now we’re on the low lighting, Damien Rice part of the evening in which I kind of want to vent and be creative and just write something.

So I thought it would be fun to just type straight into WordPress with no idea of what I was going to say and see what happens. So this is it.

I’ve seen everyone on Twitter saying that January seems so long, and it honestly does. Never have I felt this angry about a January before. The past couple of weeks I have been feeling the shittiest I have in a while in general and everyone has been blaming it on January 2018, the longest month in the history in the world. Usually, I love January. I’m sort of a Christmasphobe so I love getting over that and into the self-improvement, brand-new-start era of the year.

But I didn’t set any resolutions this year because I was scared to fail and everything has changed so quickly in the last two months that I haven’t had any time to bask in the glory of a new year and all the opportunities it brings and instead I’m just tired and angry and generally feeling shitty. I know I’m probably not the only one feeling like this by any stretch but it has really caught me by surprise because usually, all it takes is an iced latte and a good night’s sleep to get me feeling back to normal.

So I’m just trying to take the rest of this month one day at a time and concentrate on self-care and the things that actually matter. I’ve already simplified so many things in the last week, from big things like the people I spend my time with and the people I make an effort to talk to on a daily basis to little things like my night time skincare routine (which was way too long and pointless) and my approach to healthy eating. I can share all of these things with you in separateĀ posts because it’s all really helped me and I’m sure we all want to be going into the month of February feeling a little less lost. I know I do.

I’m not fishing for pity but if you’ve been feeling shitty this January please comment or tweet me or something (@teachezbee) and we can moan about it together. I’m not in saying that this has technically been a shit month because in so many ways it has been amazing and the last couple of months have actually been life-changing for me, but I can’t shake this feeling of constant low-level anxiety that usually doesn’t keep me awake at night quite as much as it is doing at the moment (fun) so any mutual ranting online would be appreciated šŸ™‚

Peace and love bitches xoxo

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